I'm emptier than I've ever been and I don't know where to find solace.
I grasp at every little bit of hope that presents itself to me but still I feel unloved, unwanted and hopeless.
I try to muster the courage to 'just keep swimming' but I don't wanna do it alone.
I wanna be someone's queen.
I'm tired of being the second choice, the third party and the last resort. I deserve to be number 1 to somebody.
I would do anything in the name of Love. All I want is a companion, one who I can be myself with. Someone I don't have to impress all the time. Someone who gets me and accepts me for who I am. I'm done with making excuses and apologizing for certain idiosyncrasies I possess.
I strive to be independent, but sometimes I just don't want to be alone. It's a matter of choice, I don't need anyone to be successful, content and happy. But I really want someone special in my life whom I can share moments, memories and thoughts with.
Your parents will love you unconditionally. They will always be there for you no matter what. You have a few close friends in your life that you know you can trust and you'd jump in front of a bus to save their lives if you had to.
But this world was made for pairs.
My ego claims that I'll be fine on my own, and I know I can be. But why should I settle for solitude?
I've had enough of regretful mornings, desperate days and most of all, lonely nights.
Nobody is perfect. We all have an ugly side.
'Looking for Love in all the wrong places.'
Story of my life.
I know I can overcome this overwhelming feeling of dread and disdain. I fill my days with work, school and other activities but the void within me is still there.
I try so hard.
